Round Six Confessional Thread

[samlechner]

oh mans what a game

[samlechner]

Hello written confessional time!!

I have a ten minutes confessional brewing in the uploading stage of Youtube right now, but here are some thoughts I'm having on the players...

I'm worried about Waylon. I think that he is playing Jack and myself right now, telling both of us that he is with us as his closest ally. I think that based on the fact that Jack and Waylon have talked a lot more strategy about this vote than I have with Jack, the boys trust each other and I'm their third. Or maybe Waylon does trust me more than Jack because he usually tells me what Jack is saying to him? hmmmm.... either way... I think Waylon is trying to make himself the kingpin of the The Middle alliance.

Speaking of alliances, I have alliance group chats with literally every person on my tribe with NO overlap. How? Hooooow?

I have The Middle-- Jack and Waylon

S/C/K-- with Carley and Kollyn

and Throuple-- with Jenny and Georgina....

Is it possible that everyone knows about the Throuple alliance and is like.... just stringing me along to vote me out? Or just stringing me along so I can't join Jenny and Georgina on a vote? I feel like that's very possible. They know how close we are and they're just keeping me in the dark with all these alliance chats.

Although I can say from personal experience-- making fake alliance chats is SO dangerous. It loses you complete trust in this game, and ultimately, it ends up biting you in the ass. So if that's what Waylon is doing right now.... his ass is grass later.

I'm just hoping that even if they're lying to me about the vote tonight, that they still take out Jenny or Georgina instead of me. I think the best game move would be to take out me because I'm way better connected than either of the Razu, but I'm hoping they don't know that. I keep downplaying a bunch of my relationships, so I hope they buy that and think the yellow are bigger threats.

I'm sure this is just the getting close to tribal in me talking... and probably the have to vote for myself creeping up.... but man, I would hate to go home. I hope I have everyone under my thumb as much as I think I do.

Even Jack is talking to me now!!! :-) (which you will note in my next video confessional that he was NOT for a long time)

Also-- I just really miss Biniam. I miss him so much. I trust Jenny as much as I do Biniam-- I don't think she'd betray me, but like... Biniam is just my PERSON in this game. He fucking lied straight to my face and I don't even care lol I hate myself for it too but I just .... miss him. UGH.

[samlechner]

I'm a cocky asshole in this video. It's a coping mechanism, I promise. I'm starting to feel the nerves.

lmaOOOOooOOooO these bitches better not be lying straight to my face or I'm gonna be so mad :-)))))

[samlechner]

Ok quick thought....... do I ..... tell Jack.... about my lack of vote this round? To try and gain his trust?


Because here is my thought process behind that-- if Jack is ACTUALLY with me. He isn't trying to vote me out. He would be sad that I didn't tell him about it because it showed I didn't trust him 100%.

If Jack is against me and Waylon is too, that means that Waylon already told him I don't have a vote. And they are potentially voting against me tonight. But maybe me being honest with him about it will convince him that I"m trustworthy and worth keeping around?

If JAck is against me and Waylon is WITH me, then it won't change anything except that Carley and Kollyn will know I don't have a vote, but we'd still have the numbers to take out Kollyn/Carley anyway.

SO I feel like there's no reason.... not to... tell Jack at this point. It can only do good things, yes? Because all of my other close allies on this tribe already know. I feel like by NOT telling him, I'm just completely taking away the chance to work with him later because he won't trust me as much.

Ok there we go. I convinced myself. I'm going to tell him.

Also..... I think a reason I'm so paranoid is that Carley said "oh I have to tape a confessional!" in the chat with me and Kollyn. Like out of NOwhere. So I'm lowkey actually very worried that Waylon told her I didn't have a vote..................

Fuck this game, fuck this paranoia.

[samlechner]

It's fine I was just paranoid. Kollyn is going home. Georgina is playing her extra vote. Awesome and awesome.

Here's the tea though..... Georgina is tryna be a S N A K E.

She is literally not just pushing Jenny in front of a bus, but she is straight up DROP KICKING her in front of it! We get it, Georgina, you don't want to go down with the badass bitch ship that is Jenny. Understood. But also, Georgina is trying SO hard to separate herself from Jenny that she is painting a bigger target on her back?? AND THEN SHE IS TELLING KOLLYN THAT JENNY AND I SEEM SUPER CLOSE? GEORGINA GIRL I KNOW YOU ARE NOT TRYING TO THROW ME UNDER THAT BUS TOO MY DUDE.

Like is this woman SO paranoid that she is willing to throw away her two closest and only true allies in this game??? What are you doing man?!!?!?! I don't understand that kind of gameplay, and frankly, Im not a fan of it. At the nearest opportunity, I'm dropping the news to Jenny and we are taking Georgina out. We are going to have enough people on the anti-Jenny train at merge-- we don't need Georgina conducting it. Not with all the information she knows.

I know I can't go the rest of this game with Jenny. I get that. Jenny is too big of a threat, and I honestly feel the same way that Georgina does.... but she waved that "Jenny is a threat" flag WAY too early and I am not prepared to see Jenny go home yet. Love her too much to say goodbye right now.

Anyway. Tribal. It's going to be fine. Everything is going to be fine. Do I feel like a piece of hot garbage for losing my vote? Absolutely. Do I feel like I even deserve to be safe this vote for losing it? No way, I deserve nothing of the sort.

Yet here we are. We move forward. We always move forward.