Post by jennyautumn on Mar 2, 2020 10:46:38 GMT -5
I'll do a video update later, but just making a quick placeholder post.
Today I am sad and having a pity party. I'll get over it. I knew what was happening with the vote last night (just not who was getting the 4 votes vs. 3) and so there was no blindside. So I just feel very blah about everything now.
I'm not giving up, but I feel *incredibly* isolated in the game right now. I know there's a fairly good chance I won't go next, but they completely disarmed me in a matter of two rounds. I now have no idol, no allies, I suck TERRIBLY at challenges, and the people left in the game that I like most are also the ones most likely to beat me. That is, if I can even *get* to the end of the game. If anyone truly ever thought I was playing the best strategic game, or was most likely to win... they certainly addressed that issue. Though I'm not all that confident that people answered me for those categories honestly.
I feel pretty decent that I might not be the next to go, but now I sort of feel like I've fallen into the role of "dead number to use for a vote" which is not the best feeling. But I'll fall back and let others take shots at each other if it means I stay alive and buy myself more time to figure my path out. I just have to figure out if there is anything I can do to have some better control over my place in the game and not just get dragged or used to advance other people's games.
And to be clear -- despite my current situation, I'm still pretty proud of the game I've played. I'm not a chaotic player. I don't blindside my allies or flip back and forth just for the sake of making a move. My game has always been to cement myself as someone people like and WANT to work with. It might not be everyone's favourite brand of game, but it would be inauthentic of me to do otherwise. I think with a different crop of players, my game would be more impressive... but I think at this point it'll just be harder to shine against other strong and social women who have made more obvious moves, won more challenges, etc.
Sometimes it just be like that.
Today I am sad and having a pity party. I'll get over it. I knew what was happening with the vote last night (just not who was getting the 4 votes vs. 3) and so there was no blindside. So I just feel very blah about everything now.
I'm not giving up, but I feel *incredibly* isolated in the game right now. I know there's a fairly good chance I won't go next, but they completely disarmed me in a matter of two rounds. I now have no idol, no allies, I suck TERRIBLY at challenges, and the people left in the game that I like most are also the ones most likely to beat me. That is, if I can even *get* to the end of the game. If anyone truly ever thought I was playing the best strategic game, or was most likely to win... they certainly addressed that issue. Though I'm not all that confident that people answered me for those categories honestly.
I feel pretty decent that I might not be the next to go, but now I sort of feel like I've fallen into the role of "dead number to use for a vote" which is not the best feeling. But I'll fall back and let others take shots at each other if it means I stay alive and buy myself more time to figure my path out. I just have to figure out if there is anything I can do to have some better control over my place in the game and not just get dragged or used to advance other people's games.
And to be clear -- despite my current situation, I'm still pretty proud of the game I've played. I'm not a chaotic player. I don't blindside my allies or flip back and forth just for the sake of making a move. My game has always been to cement myself as someone people like and WANT to work with. It might not be everyone's favourite brand of game, but it would be inauthentic of me to do otherwise. I think with a different crop of players, my game would be more impressive... but I think at this point it'll just be harder to shine against other strong and social women who have made more obvious moves, won more challenges, etc.
Sometimes it just be like that.